John 1:1-18; Matthew 2:1-12 “What’ s In Your Darkness?
January 5, 2014 – Caitlin Trussell
Augustana Lutheran Church, Denver, CO
John 1:1-18 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was in the beginning with God. 3 All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being. What has come into being 4 in him was life, and the life was the light of all people. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it.
6 There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. 7 He came as a witness to testify to the light, so that all might believe through him. 8 He himself was not the light, but he came to testify to the light. 9 The true light, which enlightens everyone, was coming into the world.
10 He was in the world, and the world came into being through him; yet the world did not know him. 11 He came to what was his own, and his own people did not accept him. 12 But to all who received him, who believed in his name, he gave power to become children of God, 13 who were born, not of blood or of the will of the flesh or of the will of man, but of God. 14 And the Word became flesh and lived among us, and we have seen his glory, the glory as of a father’s only son, full of grace and truth. 15 (John testified to him and cried out, “This was he of whom I said, “He who comes after me ranks ahead of me because he was before me.’ “) 16 From his fullness we have all received, grace upon grace. 17 The law indeed was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ. 18 No one has ever seen God. It is God the only Son, who is close to the Father’s heart, who has made him known.
For the 12 days of Christmas we celebrate the birth of a savior. On Epiphany, January 6th, we celebrate the light of the savior. On this, the 12th day of Christmas, this Epiphany Eve, we’ll do a little bit of both.
We celebrate not just any birth over Christmas…but a birth that shines light into the darkness, a birth that changes the world. Now certainly God has been active in history before the birth of Jesus. Connecting the moment of this birth to all of God’s history, the gospel writer uses those powerful words, “In the beginning…” These words that John uses to introduce the Word can also be heard in the very first verse of Genesis.  This connection draws a huge arc through time, space, and place, between the birth of creation to the birth of Jesus.
So while Luke spends time on the human details of shepherds and a manger and Matthew gives us the magi, John spends time on the cosmic ones. Where Luke and Matthew’s words weave a compelling story, John’s words elevate us into poetic mystery. We could leave it there, in those mysterious heights. We could keep at a distance this mysterious poetry that many discard as too heady or inaccessible. Many theologians do. Except…except…John doesn’t leave it dangling out in the mystery of the cosmos, untouchable or inaccessible.
John brings the Word straight to the ground. “And the Word became flesh and lived among us.” This God who created…who made promises through Abraham, who brought freedom through Moses, who instigated challenge through the prophets, who gave guidance through kings…this God became flesh. A mysterious, inaccessible, cosmic God becomes a God that is part of our common humanity, through common flesh. God taking on flesh to join us in our humanity is the birth we celebrate over Christmas. It is the birth recognized by the Magi’s visit. It is why some people call Christmas the Festival of the Incarnation rather than Christmas. God incarnate simply means God in a body – or as John likes to put it, “And the Word became flesh and lived among us.” But if it were only that, if it were only God joining us and dabbling in fleshiness, we leave out a critical piece of the story.
God living among us in Jesus is a cause for celebration during Christmas as well as a reason to pause and reflect on Epiphany. Not simply because God showed up but because God immerses in the struggle of humanity as the first and last Word. As John writes, “The light shines in the darkness and the darkness did not overcome it.” Light moving in the dark; day against night. This language may be poetic but we get it when someone talks about their darkness:
The darkness of someone we love living with a mental illness that is difficult to treat.
The darkness of grief and the confusion it brings to daily life.
The darkness of disease, acute or chronic, that takes up more space in the day than anything else.
If we could sit and talk about the darkness here this morning, each one of us could name a way that it affects our lives or the life of someone we love. Before today, you’ve likely had some of these conversations with family, friends, sometimes even with strangers. The kind of conversation where all the walls between people are down and the darkness is named for what it is.
Besides the obvious location of a pastor’s office, they can pop up almost anywhere – at work, on the sideline of a sports event, or over lunch.
A few years ago, preparing to catch a flight out of DIA, I was moving into the waiting area at the gate. The gate was in the end of the terminal which housed about eight gates bundled together. There were tons of people waiting for their flights and all I wanted was to be alone with my thoughts. And, then, I spotted it, a chair facing the windows, looking out at the tarmac, away from the crowds with a few seats buffer on either side. I had one of those moments where you’re happier than you really should be. As I was setting down my carry-on, I glanced over at a gentleman a couple of chairs down and, literally during my movement to sit, the man looked at me, looked at the cross on my neck and said, “Can I ask you a question?”
As it turned out, what he really wanted to do was tell his story. He was heading to his mother’s home to say goodbye to her before she died. He told me about his family, the mess of it, the pain of it and his part in all of that mess and pain. He told me about how Jesus had found him, how Jesus had changed his life and how he trusted Jesus to help him now. He was hurting, he made himself vulnerable and he was confessing in the middle of a busy airport, to an utter stranger. And in the midst of all of that, he trusted God’s presence in the midst of some pretty big darkness. And not just that God showed up but that God was fighting in the struggle with him.
His testimony about where he sees God, where he sees the light shining in the darkness, helps us think about where we might see God in our own.
Thinking about the struggle with darkness makes me think about that man in the airport. Thinking about the struggle with darkness makes me think about my own. Thinking about the struggle with darkness makes me want to invite you to consider yours. Because it is into this real struggle, this darkness, that Jesus is not only born but lived, died, and lives again. Jesus who continues to bring light that reveals God in the midst of the worst that life brings – a light that brings hope as we are born children of God.
Our birth as children of God is ‘not of blood.’ This birth gives us hope that “we will not be subject to the frailties of human flesh forever.” Our birth as children of God is “not of the will of the flesh”. This birth gives us hope that “we are more than our desires.” Our birth as children of God is not “of the will of humans.” This birth gives us hope that “we will not always be subject to the whim and will of others”  or the many other dimensions of darkness that affects our lives. 
As children of God, our lives have meaning over and against any darkness that overwhelms us. That is to say, that our lives have meaning over and against anything we can come up with to say they don’t. Maybe, closer to home yet, your life has meaning over and against any darkness that someone else or even you can come up with to say it doesn’t. You mean something to God – the light who shines into your darkness and joins the struggle with you, who births you a child of God.
 Genesis is the first book of the Bible’s 66 books. Genesis 1:1 – “In the beginning when God created the heavens and the earth…”
 Thank you Sigurd Nelson, Retired Pastor and Army Chaplain, for this reflection.
 David Lose on Working Preacher, December 25, 2010. http://www.workingpreacher.org/preaching.aspx?commentary_id=857
 Lawrence Ulrich, Ph.D., personal conversation on January 4, 2013.